First Post

Well, I finally caved in and got one of these things. I actually still claim that I was ahead of the trend when I created The Danasty exactly twenty-nine months ago today, but this is actually probably a lot simpler and although not as complete, easier for people to read. Which brings me to my next point...

I don't quite understand the reason for these things. I suppose I decided to register for one of these online journals so that I could have a means preserving my thoughts for years. Since I'm more inclined to lose a note pad than an internet, I figured this would be the best way. However, I want these to be my thoughts, not my thoughts that have been edited because I know other people might be reading them. Like everyone else in this world, I put up a front to mask how imperfect my life really is. It's quite unfortunate, but I don't want to become vulnerable to others actually knowing what's really going on. Only one person in my life ever really truly knew who I was, but that relationship died along with The Danasty.

I see this archive taking one of three different paths over the course of its life. I'd like to write freely about the people and situations that affect my life, but because I'm too concerned with other people's feelings, I may write about things and not let anyone ever know about this. More realistically, I'll probably tell people about it - since I can't keep my own personal information very personal - and publish whatever I think whenever I think it, at falsity's expense. Who am I kidding? After a month's time, it'll probably be just like the bullshit I tell people now, only in written form. I'll let you know what direction it's actually taken next month. [EDIT: Ok, after speaking with a friend about what I meant here, I've decided to clarify. This is not going to be used as a gossip column, however, sometimes I have things that happen in my life which involve other people. I'm not planning to talk about the people, but rather the situations. Things will be general, and many times, you might not even know what I'm talking about. Like I said before, this 'journal' of sorts is to perserve my thoughts and the events in my life, it's just that I don't mind if others read it.]

Also, I couldn't come up with a title for this thing. After deciding to a use combo of personal traits, I chose to definitely use Enthusiastic. After thinking about it for like 35 minutes, I was going to jokingly name it Enthusiastically Bland or Enthusiastically Uncreative, but I'm not a negative person, so that didn't fly. Then I thought about Charmingly Enthusiastic, but thought that might reflect too much of the egotist in me. Hmm, now that I think about it, I think I like Simply Enthusiastically Optimistic.....haha, too many syllables. I'm happy with this, for now.

That's enough.